My people/my friends are amazing. It's difficult to share struggle; to say that sometimes I get frustrated and have doubts in myself and others. The want is to show that I have it all together and I'm impervious to things like a lack of confidence in myself or that I have completely overcome anything that could cause anxiety or fears to rise within. Well, my happiness is found in not only accepting that I'm not perfect, but admitting it too. I'll never be perfect, but I will be better as long as I keep practicing/doing the things that need to be done to fully embrace myself and my humanity.
Life changes, like relocation of a residence and changing jobs (even when staying in the same career field), do cause stress. Having the opportunity to express that through this medium showed me that I have support from all who care for me. I'm grateful. Many have reached out publicly and privately to let my know that they were willing to provide support in any way that they could. Wow! Just that very act of kindness was enough to help me get through.
So most of what I was concerned about has resolved and I'm still heading in the direction that I've set myself to go. There are still details that, in my mind, are still flapping in the breeze, but I have faith that everything will work how I desire--in the best interest of me.
Making big changes, even positive, will stir things up emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. But I know that I'll get through it all and come out on the other side of it all much better off than I was going into the fray. Knowing that I have support helps immensely.
Yeah I do this, writing about myself, things happening in my life and things that I learn, because I know that it will not only help me, it will help someone else. I promise that I will continue to speak up because I know that there are those who need to hear what I have to say.